Monday 2 November 2009

im such a failure :(

today was a horrible day for me, i have not been looking forward to today, the reason for this being it was my driving test, my second to be precise.

on the 9th october i had my first driving test and i failed, i only had 2 minors and the major mistake was i went into the curb whlit trying to reverse aroud the corner, i was naturally quite upset but i got over it as i was convinced that i could do it next time, after all i only got 2 minors and one not so serious major (i didn't kill anyone).

i booked my second test straight away for the 2nd november and have had about 15 lessons to sort out the corner and i was doing so well in lessons, i even done the reverse around the corner in complete darkness.

so this morning i awoke slightly panicking but i was convinced that i was going to pass the bloody thing after all i was now a very good driver so my instructor said and prior to test the only thing i was going to fail on was eyesight right, wrong.

we got to the horrible test centre and out came the horrible examiner and that was it, he was a very patronising man and marked me down for almost everything i did including breathing, he was sitting next to me making unapproving sounds that were off putting. at more than one point i wanted to tell him to stop the test so i was not surprised i failed, on a totally different level, i also personally found him to be quite sleazy and was not comfortable at all

later on after the test my instructor, who was in the back, agreed and said some of the things weren't as bad as he said and half of the things were fine and a couple of things could have been minors. she then dropped the bombshell that he was the nasiest examiner at the centre and didn't really approve of female drivers, now having been the victim of racism and sexiesm a few months ago i found that too much too bear and cue on tears.

so the results, well i ended up with 12 minors and also everything was a serious, every bloody box was labelled as serious. im am gutted